As the scale of the attacks and their location became clear the walls became harder to maintain. This wasn't a targeted attack, this was random, and bloody, and the sweet emotional guard of statistics starts to wear down as the body counts rise. Compounding things, we were not really able to get a hold of anyone for some time.
As it happens, everyone is fine, but the more details that have soaked through the more disturbing it has been. Not so much the barbarity of the attacks, which at this point is also depressingly expected, as how close the attacks came to places and people I know and love. The reaction of the French has been, on a whole, admirable, as befits a wonderful and caring people, and I hope they continue in the vein of reasonable self protection, efforts to fix the situation, but guided by caring and restraint.
The video below was from before the attacks but it was a happy moment, one I hope can be held onto as we all move forward.